back in the blog

hi girls.

it's been such a long while since i posted - almost a year. i'm a little embarrassed by that and also sad to have let y'all down in offering support. the reasons are many to list and probably a bit too boring but the main gist of it is that i had a pretty mean case of post-partum depression that got its hooks in me and i had a heck of a time. i thin i've finally shaken it in the last 2 months. i feel loads better and am just glad to be fully "conscious" emotionally and physically. all this to say i'm back in the game - if you'll have me.

it's been a funny year and one that i would not trade for any thing. i've never been so challenged in my life and i think i've grown a lot as a person but i also see that i have so much more to grow. my goals have realigned. i still want to be healthy and vibrant and in all honesty, smaller, but my beginning point has changed and i'm looking for a different destination as well.

being a mother is amazing and wonderful and tiring. my starting point in this renewed journey is that i want to have more energy. i also want to be outside with max, the dog and our family. it's simply the best place to be and for me it's the place i feel closest to God, to myself and where i feel a greater purpose in the things i do. goal #1 is to be outside at least twice a day and for one of those times to be a 1/2 walk. the other can be playtime, another walk or staring at bugs.

i used to treat food as part of my spiritual path and i want to get back to that. when i looked at food as part of my spiritual work, i made better choices of food, put more emotion and care into preparing food and felt more nourished at the end of a meal/snack. i want to add this back into my life. i miss cooking. i didn't realize how much processed food, candy, snacks and such had made their way into my diet. it's most of what i eat. no wonder i'm gaining weight. i gotta get back to the basics. real food, prepared simply with love and care. part of what amber said regarding your body as a temply resonated with me and i think that's some of what i'm touching on here. goal #2 is to treat food as spiritual journey to include blessings for all the food i eat and incorporating both gratefulness and restraint in face of abudunce.

finally, i want to get back to better health and to feel better about myself. i have been working out with a level of success over the past few weeks and i've noticed a funny thing. i am actually stronger than i have been in years - thanks to toting a 22 pound bundle of love around many hours a day. the thing is i may be stronger but i don't always feel it because my aerobic is lacking and i sure don't look it due to my diet. goal#3 is to drink 6 cups of water/day and to choose real food over sugar as much as possible. i think the best way to do this is to take cherry's advice and keep a food journal as well as being faithful about blogging.

my but that's a long entry and took me the better part of a day to complete. hope to see you girls on the blog soon.